And it’s a difficult road to be on.
I never looked at myself as attractive. I was one of those guys who always felt like a woman had to get to know me first and then I could ask for the date, you know? Like, my personality is excellent; no one can take that away from me.
But my face and body and height? Eh.
But lately, like in the past 2 or 3 years, I’ve been told that I’m attractive/cute/handsome/etc. Initially, I always laughed it off because I took it as a polite way of saying ‘you cool people but you’re below average in the looks department, but I’m not gonna tell you that to your face, so here’s a throwaway compliment’.
But now, there’s more and more women telling me that looks wise, I am a pretty dapper guy. And they mean it. And whether they know it or not, it’s a ego boost; one that I certainly appreciate. Especially April, who thinks I’m damn good looking, and not just because she’s dating me; she thought so beforehand.
I don’t know, I’m rambling. I’m just trying to come to grips with my attractiveness.
No matter how ugly I think I am, someone out there likes my face. And I’m always surprised at the type of women that do like my face: the very beautiful, the very modelesque, the very attractive in a ‘I can literally get any man on this planet’ type of women.
I’m workinonit, though.